it's about time i actually wrote...about love. the human heart. agape love. what keeps every single person on Earth going.
proverbs 4:23
"ABOVE all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it."
i thought i knew what L O V E was.
i had my own ideas on "it." and honestly, i learned to despise it. to hate it. to
mock it. to fear it. and ultimately, to RUN from it.
parents are supposed to LOVE you, unconditionally.
a mother carries a child in her womb as you form. THAT is supposed to be an unbreakable bond.
a father is supposed to love. respect. guide. protect. a FATHER is an essential relationship to have in your life. without it, many deter. they are left voided. confused. empty. lost.
heartbreak and pain exist. abandonment clouds so many hearts. darkness and brokeness loom inside of so many.
desperation led me to search for love everywhere i could.
MEN:
where i searched
for it hopelessly.
DRUGS:
where i ran to escape my lack of it.
self harm:
what i did because i had never felt true love.
i'm keeping this one short, sweet, and simple.
people think because you find God, you automatically find love.
and that's true. GOD is LOVE.
but it's not an overnight thing. it takes time to let Jesus in, and cleanse your heart.
it's a journey. sometimes, it's a minute by minute, day by day thing.
the only thing we as humans can ever really depend on is the unfailing, everlasting, eternal love of CHRiST.
it's taken more than 2 years for me to accept this reality.
it's took 23 years for me to ever FiND it.
the Lord didn't create us to live in a dark, loveless world.
He didn't create us to be alone.
He didn't create us to drown in heartbreak.
He didn't create us to be clouded with pain.
you see, over these months, i've run to God to heal my pain and loss. trusted His plans, and have believed Him to be sovereign over my life. i have had faith, when i have seen nothing but clouds.
but several times, i have forgotten the most simple, yet amazing trait of who HE is.
L O V E!
God shows us in the purest of ways, every single day, just how much He loves us.
how selfish to be consumed with every other thing in the world, yet ignore His constant love letters He is putting in our daily lives.
a beautiful sunset. a letter, or a phone call from a friend or family member. a rainstorm. an answered prayer. an unanswered prayer. a SMILE. a tear.
his love is everywhere.
J E S U S C H R I S T I S L O V E...
mighty! powerful! breathtaking! gracious!
WHOLE, TRUE, EVERLASTING.
fulfilling, compelling, UNSELFISH.
Jesus. Love. True Love.
we all need to be reminded of how amazing His love is. and how it will never fail us, when often everything in the world will.
self admittedly, in the midst of pain, grief and heartache, lately...
i have forgotten. simply. who He is.
Love covers everything. HIS love covers all.
How marvelous! What a lovely reminder.
there is nothing we could ever do to be worthy of it, yet he pours it upon us.
tonight, i'm letting this sink in. my daddy, the Creator of Heavens and Earth wants nothing more than to lavish His love on me.
just a reminder for everybody who, at some point, is going to feel so alone, and unloved...
while there may be some times where you feel everybody is turning away from you, hurting you, or betraying you...
consider the arms of God...
He is the most trusted place ONE to run to.
MIGHTY. HOLY. PURE. PERFECT.
HiS faithful love endures forever.
HiS faithful love endures forever.
HiS faithful love endures forever.
Never forget.
xoxo,
caitlin.
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